An unofficial anthology

I will stay

I will stay

Absolute in one thing. 

I am not a fool, though maybe I was, 

Though maybe I have done countless things foolish. 

One said to me 

The only true mistakes are the ones we do not learn from 

"And you promise not to do it ever again?" 

I have upheld my promise 

On the other hand I see hypocrisy. 

I am not a trinket or bauble 

Although you very well may view me as one. 

I trusted an encounter 

Not because I am a fool 

But because of the muddled waters of a  clouded lake 

I thought I saw stars

But I was wrong.

But I do know one place I saw a star

Through a glowing screen, 

And she was a star because she flickered endlessly. 

She was by no means heavenly, 

Yet she seemed lost. 

I hope she is shining brightly in heaven, if there is one. 

One once told me 

"Not all things concern you" 

In this I see hypocrisy 

But

I will stay

Absolute in one thing. 

When I said I remembered a lot 

I did. 

I remembered every dart of pain 

And every wicked act. 

But 

I will stay 

Absolute in one thing.

I know you lie, you act hypocritical, you demean, you view me as a fool and a bauble to be toyed with. I know you can't be trusted. 

But I still forgive you for everything.

It hurts but you are human. And your actions or vision of me does not define you as a person. When I said I hoped you were happy it was in no means sarcastic. 

You may degrade me in your inner mindset all you like, I cannot control it, but I will remain absolute in my forgiveness and harbor no resentment. 

I am not a fool, though you may very well see me as one. 

I wonder if you know my reasoning as to why, I am not foolish. 

Remain unchanged. Do as you like. 

maybe one day you will know.